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<\/figure>\n\n\n\nMay \u2013 Well past the 3 weeks.<\/h1>\n\n\n\n
Now everyone is getting emails about Chris. The contact list. They are all getting emails that Chris is a \u201cwife beater and a cheat\u201d. Stalker lets Chris know that \u201cS\u201d (Chris\u2019s ex-wife) and he are now friends. Stalker contacted S on Match.com and they have been hanging out. He\u2019s \u2018getting the scoop\u2019 on Chris. That night, S calls asking Chris for his social security number for some form. Chris asked her if it\u2019s for stalker \u2013 after she confirms they are new friends \u2013 and Chris proceeds to warn her about stalker and hangs up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In the meantime, Connie and I devise a plan to prove it\u2019s stalker. After creating a hushmail account, she emails ME. Subject line is dum dum. It is written in the same context he would send emails and it was probably embarrassing for him to read. Right after that, Stalker sends me an email as himself letting me know about \u201ckeyloggers\u201d. Connie politely emailed ME again, letting HIM know it was her and now can prove he is the one in my email. But when we tried to turn it in and explain what it was, it was frowned upon. There was contact that stemmed from us \u2013 even though SHE EMAILED ME, not him\u2026 me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel so guilty this is happening to Chris now too. It wouldn\u2019t be happening to him if it wasn\u2019t for me. I give him the out. A no hard feeling out. I would have totally understood, this is crazy shit -but instead of taking that out, he made it clear he wanted to stay. We decided to put my house up for sale and kids and I should move in with him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Honestly at this point I feel like giving up. I stopped tracking all the times I saw him, it wasn\u2019t doing me any good. I\u2019m calling and leaving messages for Detective Lorrie all the time, nothing is moving forward, it\u2019s only getting worse. I\u2019ve lost my independence, I\u2019ve lost all peace, I\u2019m about to lose my job, Phil is keeping the kids more and more, I\u2019m losing my faith, and completely losing myself. Detective Lorrie encourages me to keep tracking.<\/p>\n\n\n\n More calls to Detective Lorrie. I\u2019m so frustrated \u2013 how can this still be going on?!?! And now going after Chris! I feel like giving up, she is working on case should be about 3 more weeks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emails and other contact has slowed down some. I have a little room to breathe \u2013 but only for a second.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Stalker has an appoint at the police station for a stress test (lie detector). Surprise, it shows he is being deceitful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Another round of emails go out pertaining to my Dad and how I became such a tramp. This time he sends them to the \u201ccontact list\u201d. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO SOMETHING!!<\/p>\n\n\n\n More calls to Detective Lorrie, from me, my upset father, from Chris. We are all upset. It\u2019s JUNE and this is still happening!<\/p>\n\n\n\n Detective Lorrie went on vacation for 6 weeks. Damn. No one to take the case. She will work on it when she gets back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Chris and I snuck off with a couple of friends and got married. The week after is when the emails and calls finally slowed down.<\/p>\n\n\n\n From July to December it was quiet. Only an occasional email and occasional sightings \u2013 letting us know he\u2019s still there. It was still tense \u2013 weirdly almost more so with the quiet. We never knew when or where stalker was going to pop back up. I didn\u2019t think for a second he was gone for good. And until he was gone, I couldn\u2019t sleep, I had to be alert and on guard all the time \u2013 it was exhausting. It felt like he was out there planning his next move.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I was calling Detective Lorrie once a week to follow up on the case, then backed off to every couple of weeks with very few callbacks. I talked to her every 6 to 8 weeks or so. Each time saying just a couple more weeks. I was definitely having a love hate relationship with her. But what was I going to do? I was afraid that she or the powers that be would drop the case. They had made it perfectly clear that was a possibility. It was so frustrating. After everything, I finally have someone who believed me \u2013 who could stop him – and I feel like I\u2019m totally getting blown off.<\/p>\n\n\n\n He was going to get away with this. And who knows when he\u2019d be back \u2013 11 months \u2013 11 days? Then what? We\u2019d have to start all over? I was stuck \u2013 treading water. Hiding out, never alone but unbelievably lonely, desperate, helpless and afraid. I feel guilty that I\u2019ve brought this man into my and others worlds. This was probably my lowest. I truly wandered if the kids and Chris would be better off without me. It was the first time in my life I understood suicide. It was the first time it made sense to me. I\u2019d be lying if I said I didn\u2019t think about it often during this time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Here we go again with the emails! Both to myself and Connie \u2013 SHIT here we go again. \u2013 Another messages to Detective Lorrie \u2013 he\u2019s back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I had had it! I decided if the police aren\u2019t going to help me \u2013 I\u2019ll go public. Someone will follow up \u2013 someone from the media will ask questions. So I contacted Indiana New Center. I figured they would be at the stalking forum presented by the police department and victim assistance that evening at the library. Bet your ass I was going to that! I never got contacted by the News Center, but I did get a call back from Detective Lorrie \u2013 coincidence? She was going back to the prosecutor\u2019s office at the end of the week to present my case. Although there was so much, she didn\u2019t know \u2018how\u2019 they were going to present, but they were. That\u2019s great news right!?<\/p>\n\n\n\n So I go to the Stalking Forum that night for Stalking Awareness Month. It consisted of the Police Sergeant, someone from the Prosecutors Office, Sheriffs, Victims Assistance and the Women\u2019s Bureau. They gave information on documentation, procedures, pressing charges, victim\u2019s assistance, etc\u2026 It was a joke. Seriously. I\u2019m going through this, with these people (or others in their positions) and I can tell you firsthand it was bullshit. None of them did what they said they were doing. And the information they are handing out, from what I\u2019ve experienced, isn\u2019t accurate or what they require to build a case.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So, I raised my hand when appropriate and challenged them, asked questions, asked why I wasn\u2019t getting help etc. The panel asked to speak to me afterwards. All were very gracious and promised to do all they could to help. I was happy, I got to make noise and was told by the Sergeant, that knew of my case, the she or Detective Lorrie would call me the following Monday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n No call back from the Sergeant or Detective Lorrie \u2013 go figure. I call the Women\u2019s Bureau, I\u2019ve never had luck with Victims Assistance but why not try again. I met with a very nice lady from the Women\u2019s Bureau who could do absolutely nothing to help me and I never hear from her again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n After a number of messages to VA and Detective Lorrie \u2013 I finally got a call back. They are still waiting on the tech guys report. She understands I\u2019m frustrated but the evidence isn\u2019t all in and what is in is circumstantial. What the heck!? All the subpoena have went out, we have taped recordings, video, all those emails, lying in court on record, etc..<\/p>\n\n\n\n After another month of no call backs, no movement I decided to seek other outside help. I emailed anyone I could think of. Dateline, Dr Phil, Big News outlets, hell even Oprah. Not that it will help, but I did feel better. Like I was doing something.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Wasn\u2019t until March till I heard from anyone again. I\u2019m sure they were sick of my weekly phone calls. But Detective Lorrie called with great news. Two of the prosecutors are interested in the case and will be working on it together! They are getting ahold of the National Stalking Resource Center to see if they have a prosecutor familiar with stalking cases to help. They may actually prosecute. But I needed to be aware that it was a difficult case, and they may need even more outside help \u2013 which was not in the budget \u2013 but they are seriously considering prosecuting. I am not to call or contact the prosecutors. They will contact me. Also, stalker turned in a thumb drive from his computer they are going through looking for evidence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nothing. Crickets for months. I was still calling or emailing once a week both Detective Lorrie and the prosecutors now. Nothing. I again felt like a sitting duck. Didn\u2019t know what car he was driving, where he was and had no idea if and how much danger I was in. I went back the original attorney who made the phone calls before, as well as continued emailing and calling other resources for help.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 2 years now. Detective Lorrie calls. Case is still and still moving forward. They have some good evidence. His old friends L & L (came to the PO hearing with newborn) had a falling out. They were able to give some useful information. Surprisingly, his friend the police officer Bobby also gave some useful information. Detective Lorrie also informs me that he wasn\u2019t adopted. Even that was a lie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Detective Lorrie is ready to type everything up and meet with the prosecutors again. Shouldn\u2019t be long now (So I was hoping) Thank God, my 2-year protective order will be up shortly!<\/p>\n\n\n\n This is around the time Dr. Phil\u2019s producers call. They received the case and would like more information. I started working with his producers to provide them the information they requested.<\/p>\n\n\n\n November rolls around and again everything is stalled. I\u2019m frustrated and furious at the same time. My PO is up, the case is still sitting there. I don\u2019t want to get another PO because it may \u201cpoke the bear\u201d, although by now, I have no job, no self-esteem, I feel defeated. I call Detective Lorrie to see what I should do regarding the PO.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m so pissed at the way things are going I started yelling \u2013 \u201cwhat the fuck am I supposed to do now!\u201d \u2013 \u201cWhy won\u2019t you do something \u2013 this is bullshit\u201d – CLICK \u2013 she hung up on me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n SHIT. The one person even remotely interested in helping me just hung up on me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I call and apologize, begging her to continue the case, then went downtown and applied for the new PO. Since things had calmed down a lot and stalker had backed off, I wasn\u2019t sure if they would grant me another one or not. They did, and this time he didn\u2019t appeal the 2 yr PO.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m continuing to work with Dr. Phil\u2019s people. We\u2019re on the phone everyday. They even gave me support to get the PO. I was invited to be on the show. They also invited stalker, willing to work within the PO parameters. They also called the Prosecutors for information. I was then informed the case was still moving forward and anything I did could compromise it \u2013 so I needed to be very careful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nothing ever happened with Dr. Phil past that. I am convinced to this day that is the reason my case ever saw the courtroom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The next 2 years are a blur. Detective Lorrie had a ton of vacation time and seems to always be gone. I stayed home \u2013 hiding. Very rarely left the house, and certainly never alone. The quietness, with occasional sightings and emails let me know stalker was still there. Everything I did now was under HidingHilda. I tried to stay off the radar completely.<\/p>\n\n\n\n In 2009 I decided it was time to go back to work. Not in a \u2018public\u2019 position but in a small, lock the door, sit in my office and do my work kind of thing. I made an appoint with a therapist to wrap my mind around going back to work, putting a new company in danger and how to handle it. During my 1st<\/sup> appointment, I told the Dr the abbreviated version of what has happened the past couple of years. He looked at me with a smirk and said, \u201cparanoid much\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n That was the end of that. Guess this too I\u2019ll do on my own. Every time I drive by that building to this day I flip off the building. lol<\/p>\n\n\n\n I did start a part-time position at a publishing company I used to staff for \u2013 who eventually ended up creating the design for the HidingHilda logo. Eventually I went back to full-time work as an Executive Recruiter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n January – Call from Detective Lorrie – There is a warrant out for his arrest for 3 felony counts of stalking! 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<\/figure>\n\n\n\nJune<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
June 4th<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
June 5th<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
June 13<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
July 7<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
January \u201908 \u2013 Ok, New Year \u2013 I\u2019ve lived with this for over a year. 15 months to be exact. My whole life has been turned upside down.<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
January 11 \u2013 Ran into his friend the Police Officer Bobby \u2013 didn\u2019t speak to him \u2013 but the eye contact said it all.<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
January 14th<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
January 15th<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
January 16th<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
January 22nd<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
September 2008<\/h1>\n\n\n\n
Winters setting in:<\/h1>\n\n\n\n